I have a lot on my mind. A lot of fear, anger, happiness, confusion… all sorts of fun stuff.
Here’s the scoop. I have a daughter and I want what’s best for her. I have a responsibility to this baby girl and I don’t know what to do. There are people out there who wish harm upon me and harm upon my relationship with my daughter. How do you fight against a force that feels they are justified in denying rights to another human being? How do you communicate or compromise with people who feel it is their god given right to punish you for not being like them?
I’m very confused about these things. For the last week I have had to make a decision and a change in the way I have been thinking. For a while I let somebody control me with fear. I was stupid and allowed my daughter to be taken away from me because I wanted to believe in human kindness and goodness and our ability to do what is right. I can’t be passive about this anymore. I was always afraid of actively pursuing my relationship with my daughter and I am done with that now.
This is going to be a very rough beginning but I must do whatever it takes to ensure that she has the opportunity to know her father and to have a father in her life that actually wants to be there. I don’t know how many children grow up wishing they had a father. But I do know that there are many.
Nobody is going to hold my hand. Nobody is going to be there to help me. I can’t sit around and whine about how the system does nothing to support fathers. I have to take that step and finally do it. I mean, what do I have to lose? I already don’t get to see her, so what can they take away from me?
There are people out there with information. Like I stated before, our goals are conflicting. I am dedicated to being there to raise a baby girl into adulthood. Some, are dedicated to making sure that does not happen. I do not care what the reasoning or justification behind this kind of attitude. All I can do is pray that my zealousness for being a dad will conquer the zealousness of others to keep two people apart.
p.s. For all you eavesdroppers out there that think you have the right to support such disgusting “morals” as denying a baby her right to a father who has the capability to be loving and supportive… I would tell you to go fuck yourselves but I can already assume that you have by denying yourself an education and by placing stock in such outdated belief systems as making moral judgement on people that you have never met and know nothing about
that’s about all the hatred I care to put into the matter. I’ll leave the hating to more experienced people like the people who can’t spell, construct a grammatically correct sentence, or generally do anything that a somewhat educated person can accomplish.
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